because I've just had so many experiences where I've tried to press on this and with the way pain works the more pain you have the more pain you're going to have because you just end up getting fixated and ruminating on it and the research actually shows that the more you ruminate on it the more you think about it and the more times you trigger it the worse it's going to get and so it's like this delicate balance between you know I kind of know how far I can press something before I'm making it worse because the research also shows that you don't want to completely just stop lifting because you drain and then when you come back even if you're pain free you're more likely to re-trigger it because you've lost that adaptation