and then on top of everything i began developing cravings for fat in ways i just didn't even know what to do with other than just start eating a lot of fat you know we had butter with us you know we had nut butters um you know we had salami and cheese i mean not necessarily the best quality bats we did some hunting for our food but um you know we weren't hunting large animals we were mainly hunting arctic care and those were relatively lean animals but we you know were like throwing gobs of butter in the pan as we cooked up the meat and whatever else