you had a very restless mind you would you would wake up a lot in the middle of the night and you'd have a thought and you'd fixate on it and sometimes it was a very rational thought like you know I'm worried about the success of this film I'm worried about my relationship with my wife I'm worried about like these were all very normal things to be uh concerned with but but they would wake you up yeah right and and and you wouldn't be able to go back to sleep